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Well!! Things sure are stressful again!!

An attempted coup. A literal attempted coup.

What the fuck.

Every time I try to think about things too hard, I feel like I'm standing on the edge of a building, about tip over into freefall, half-a-second shy of splattering on the concrete, and so I am mostly trying my best to handle how much I pay attention to this, and how much I think and worry over it. I hate this. I hate this so fucking much.

The one good thing to come out of this is at least apparently Trump got banned from Twitter. Like, permanently. It's been a minor source of entertainment, in a gallows humor way, to watch people talk about him apparently trying to evade the ban by first hijacking the @potus account, then his campaign account, and at least one other, all of which he has been successively banned from (or in the case of the @potus account, they're just manually deleting his tweets.) His desperation is as funny as it is deeply terrifying.

(Of course, he's only banned because Twitter is presumably trying to cover their asses after... that, especially when he got un-suspended and immediately went back to implied threats and incitements of violence, and it's obviously way too little, way too late, but it at least gives my heart a tiny spark of joy to know he is suffering.)

01/06/2021, continued

what the fuck


Starting school stuff again, as the year begins. I'm still not taking formal classes, but I'm trying out Khan Academy, since I've used it as a reference resource before, and it's actually got a lot of good material, including courses covering what I might have otherwise been studying this quarter (such as Physics.) I also want to try taking a language course, and have been talking with my parent about that. Apparently they found something useful, but I haven't gotten around to checking it out yet.

Slowly dragging my sleep schedule back into more reasonable hours. I woke up before noon today, and sadly, that's an accomplishment.

Not much new to report yet. Buckling in for another year of quarantine, for now.

For the record (historically? posterity? something like that): there is a vaccine at this point, being released, but it's 1) limited access to old people, "essential workers", etc (and also apparently certain higher-ups who cheat the system and cut in metaphorical line like assholes), 2) we don't know if it provides sterilizing immunity (i.e. the kind where you're immune and can't pass it on to anyone else), and 3) it's basically been rushed out of beta testing like a video game before Christmas because we're in an emergency and don't have time for several years of careful study, which means some of us are a little leery of it, particularly when at least one also uses a completely new method (RNA).

Anyway! Social distancing is still very much in effect, and will remain so for the forseeable future. Truth be told, I have never been more glad to be a total homebody.


Happy belated New Year's! It's 2021 now. I've... I've been keeping this diary for a year and a half, which is really weird to think about.

When I first started this, I hoped to document a bit of my day-to-day life, and I idly wondered if I would end up capturing historical events around me as they happened. I sure did end up doing that, I guess.

Holidays have come and gone, and there's chocolate and lovely things. I've been doing more cooking, slowly racking up recipes in a notebook -- most recently, fried rice from leftovers of the homemade chinese food we had a few nights ago. It was nice, really. I'm enjoying gaining these skills, especially after so long worrying about my lack of them. I also learned how to make pancakes, and I've made them unsupervised twice for myself and my siblings, which was really fun.

Our family got a communal Switch, I've started playing The Legend Of Zelda: Breath Of The Wild. I'm not really any good at it, because I'm not used to the control scheme (I keep trying to open the menu and firing the bow instead, and the different get out/put away weapon buttons are wildly unintuitive), but I'm slowly exploring and messing around, and it's fun, especially with a little guidance from time to time from Dad or my sister (who have both played much farther along.)

We also got a copy of Mario Kart, which was an Experience. Finally, a racing game I'm not godawful at, lol.

Anyway, that's just some stuff, I guess. Life continues. It goes on and on, and maybe we'll be a little more prepared next year. I mean, probably not, but we can hope. And we can try.

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